I was psycho-analyzing my mom the other day when I realized that maybe I was doing the very thing that she does. For example, my mom, when feeling guilty always assumes that the other party was mad at her for some reason. So in other words, she is projecting her guilt onto them, when in fact, the other party has no idea of what my mom has any reason to feel guilty about. Now me, I'm working for too many darn labs. One of which I am not really supposed to be working for anymore. I have been feeling guilty and pressured by one of my bosses thinking that she does not like me, she thinks my half a salary that she is paying me is a waste of money etc....But in fact, she's probably very busy with her own problems. So here I am demonizing her, making her the bad guy when it's just me projecting my guilt onto her. When I realized this, my meeting with her went much better yesterday. I did not read anything into her comments on my research...
The power of realizing how misguided our thoughts can be. Must be a bad coping skill.
Anywho, I'm still feeling good. Just a little nauseated sometimes and tired.